Been barking up the tree you fled Now I'm feeling unleashed Maybe needed to be kicked Before I'd ever show my teeth Though I've been gnawing all I could, chewed through every little bit  I've been searching for the bones buried in this pile of shit But you turned out to be spineless  Loyal to the end despite this  When you fell I was around You were limping, almost down It was easy, you didn't need to need me And now I know my place, I still savour the taste My jaws were made to hold And never to let go, so I'm by your side, although you died on me a while back  I wonder when, but you said that you weren't keeping track And now your flesh is kinda bitter, I know I could do better  I'm a scavenger, but soon I will attack I'm by your side, although you died on me a while back  I wonder when, but you said that you weren't keeping track And now your flesh is kinda bitter, I know I could do better  I'm a scavenger, scavenger You looked delicious on the surface Opened you up and saw the maggots By the time I saw you were infested I was already invested, but Holding on is so exhausting, your promises are rotting Don't know how this thing has been festering Need a distraction, feed my narrow vision Drinking marrow in my kitchen, heedless if it's poison Running through my system, scrounging like a vixen Eating these worms, cos' the can's been opened Losing my mind, losing my sight Slowly the only one blind to my plight Still feeding off a years' old corpse Still can't see that what I'm beating is a dead horse   All this time I didn't know, I've got these strings upon my bow It's time to loosen up and let those arrows go All this time I’ve bottled up; now let it flow Throw away the waste, cos' now it's time to chase  I'm picking up a brand new scent  I want it And this time, it's gonna be fresh, I promise Till then

I believe in convenient miracles Any reason not to be cynical I hear her reservations, she can keep them Maybe I'm a doormat but I do love to be walked on   Right now I don't wanna fight now  It's time to turn the light down  Body over, mind out Mind out    Baby it’s ok I’ve got you so close, you’re safe with me In this moment Say you feel the same  You know that you mean so much to me, For today You are pathetic, but you could still get it I guess that this is love, sell my soul for a second Fuck! I'm a traitor, clear off, investigator  I know this could go further Let you get away with murder But   Right now Won't put up a fight now  It’s time to turn the light down  Body over, mind out Mind out  So, you've got a problem with commitment? That's ok, it's not your fault you're inconsistent Trust me, I'm already damaged close to batshit White lies, crossed lines, go on, take advantage    But I didn't think I'd see you licking anybody's shoes  Now I'm starting to feel hurt, a little dirty, little used In a way far less affirming, disconcerting, I'm confused   What are you doing? Don't you ruin my delusion of your views I don't mind if you hurt me, draw the line at my friends, Really don't mind if you hurt me Please hurt me Again Right now Don’t put up a fight now  It’s time to turn the light down  Body over, mind out, mind out Mind out 

Projecting your own doubts onto me Your insecurity made me an effigy I was completely transparent, my heart so apparent that everybody could see Everyone but you I could hardly breathe in between the lies laid behind my teeth Looking for your lips, even in my dreams Blade between my ribs, she whispered ‘please don't scream’   Hold me tight, as electricity splits the sky I never meant to twist you into this But you cut me when you could have untied Now my head’s not right Now my head’s not right   Think I might choke on your name as I hold it in But these pointed edges pierce the skin And blood’s dripping, dripping I left things in the wrong way I’m sorry, I do hate loose ends But for my pretence, everything makes sense I still can't see why I got so obsessed But you looked at me in a certain way And for all the pain Now I wish I could say Fair weather friend Summer with you never could end Farewell again Flee the scene when shadows descend 

Grateful to the core I hate to ask for more When without you I would be defenceless   Don't wanna isolate myself But when I don't I feel the guilt With each day, I grow more dependent   Do you still believe there's a chance for me I am terrified I'll be your parasite Reassure me now, I know further down When all my lights go out, you might change your mind Now my life fills with regret For all I should have done and said In the days before I was so helpless   I can't return the love That I'm not worthy of So say goodbye as I become my sickness   Did you earn love Did you earn love Did you earn Did you earn life Did you earn life Did you earn

Heartbreak, disaster, unhappy ever after Shaking like a leaf, frozen with PTSD It feels as I'm dying every time we disagree   Lie where you left me, my mind disconnects, breathe Over, up, over, down, see and touch and taste the ground Turn turds into diamond rings, must think of no other things Tie your hands and embrace the stink, don't waste precious suffering  Weapons where I can see them, now say you'll fight for freedom I'm not sated by a token, better pray you kill some demons Squirm at what I ask you, cry about what you can't do It's nothing It's nothing next to what I have to   Start the camera Pick up whatever remains of me after  If you glue me back together Then I know I can be broken over And over Contemplate your concepts, you can sing for sunsets I must stake my heart on my part in the unrest Melodies of pleas to be seen as a person Suitably niche to be seen then forgotten     If you want it, my place in the corner Sells chaos and pain and disorder Come run your fingers all over my specialties R-rated, are hated, carefully labelled Because, it's really not so edible, Give you pause for thought, but not in general Just for now, you see my struggle and how It's so inspiring no doubt, I never will be without it so   Am I a victim of the system? Am I your best friend? am I a token? I'm not important I'll be important   If I bleed let it freeze, I can carve me an effigy Respect intellect when the pain is my identity Suppose that I deserve this, to find my sense of purpose In dealing with the shit that I shouldn't have to deal with Don't lie, don't lie You don't look pretty when you cry