Heartbreak, disaster, unhappy ever after
Shaking like a leaf, frozen with PTSD
It feels as I'm dying every time we disagree
 
Lie where you left me, my mind disconnects, breathe
Over, up, over, down, see and touch and taste the ground
Turn turds into diamond rings, must think of no other things
Tie your hands and embrace the stink, don't waste precious suffering 

Weapons where I can see them, now say you'll fight for freedom
I'm not sated by a token, better pray you kill some demons
Squirm at what I ask you, cry about what you can't do
It's nothing
It's nothing next to what I have to
 
Start the camera
Pick up whatever remains of me after 
If you glue me back together
Then I know I can be broken over
And over

Contemplate your concepts, you can sing for sunsets
I must stake my heart on my part in the unrest
Melodies of pleas to be seen as a person
Suitably niche to be seen then forgotten  
 
If you want it, my place in the corner
Sells chaos and pain and disorder
Come run your fingers all over my specialties
R-rated, are hated, carefully labelled

Because, it's really not so edible,
Give you pause for thought, but not in general
Just for now, you see my struggle and how
It's so inspiring no doubt, I never will be without it so
 
Am I a victim of the system?
Am I your best friend? am I a token?
I'm not important
I'll be important
 
If I bleed let it freeze, I can carve me an effigy
Respect intellect when the pain is my identity
Suppose that I deserve this, to find my sense of purpose
In dealing with the shit that I shouldn't have to deal with

Don't lie, don't lie
You don't look pretty when you cry