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Scavenger
04:02
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Been barking up the tree you fled
Now I'm feeling unleashed
Maybe needed to be kicked
Before I'd ever show my teeth
Though I've been gnawing all I could, chewed through every little bit
I've been searching for the bones buried in this pile of shit
But you turned out to be spineless
Loyal to the end despite this
When you fell I was around
You were limping, almost down
It was easy, you didn't need to need me
And now I know my place,
I still savour the taste
My jaws were made to hold
And never to let go, so
I'm by your side, although you died on me a while back
I wonder when, but you said that you weren't keeping track
And now your flesh is kinda bitter, I know I could do better
I'm a scavenger, but soon I will attack
I'm by your side, although you died on me a while back
I wonder when, but you said that you weren't keeping track
And now your flesh is kinda bitter, I know I could do better
I'm a scavenger, scavenger
You looked delicious on the surface
Opened you up and saw the maggots
By the time I saw you were infested
I was already invested, but
Holding on is so exhausting, your promises are rotting
Don't know how this thing has been festering
Need a distraction, feed my narrow vision
Drinking marrow in my kitchen, heedless if it's poison
Running through my system, scrounging like a vixen
Eating these worms, cos' the can's been opened
Losing my mind, losing my sight
Slowly the only one blind to my plight
Still feeding off a years' old corpse
Still can't see that what I'm beating is a dead horse
All this time I didn't know, I've got these strings upon my bow
It's time to loosen up and let those arrows go
All this time I’ve bottled up; now let it flow
Throw away the waste, cos' now it's time to chase
I'm picking up a brand new scent
I want it
And this time, it's gonna be fresh, I promise
Till then
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I believe in convenient miracles
Any reason not to be cynical
I hear her reservations, she can keep them
Maybe I'm a doormat but I do love to be walked on
Right now
I don't wanna fight now
It's time to turn the light down
Body over, mind out
Mind out
Baby it’s ok
I’ve got you so close, you’re safe with me
In this moment
Say you feel the same
You know that you mean so much to me,
For today
You are pathetic, but you could still get it
I guess that this is love, sell my soul for a second
Fuck! I'm a traitor, clear off, investigator
I know this could go further
Let you get away with murder
But
Right now
Won't put up a fight now
It’s time to turn the light down
Body over, mind out
Mind out
So, you've got a problem with commitment?
That's ok, it's not your fault you're inconsistent
Trust me, I'm already damaged close to batshit
White lies, crossed lines, go on, take advantage
But I didn't think I'd see you licking anybody's shoes
Now I'm starting to feel hurt, a little dirty, little used
In a way far less affirming, disconcerting, I'm confused
What are you doing? Don't you ruin my delusion of your views
I don't mind if you hurt me, draw the line at my friends,
Really don't mind if you hurt me
Please hurt me
Again
Right now
Don’t put up a fight now
It’s time to turn the light down
Body over, mind out, mind out
Mind out
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Loose Ends
03:52
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Projecting your own doubts onto me
Your insecurity made me an effigy
I was completely transparent, my heart so apparent that everybody could see
Everyone but you
I could hardly breathe in between the lies laid behind my teeth
Looking for your lips, even in my dreams
Blade between my ribs, she whispered ‘please don't scream’
Hold me tight, as electricity splits the sky
I never meant to twist you into this
But you cut me when you could have untied
Now my head’s not right
Now my head’s not right
Think I might choke on your name as I hold it in
But these pointed edges pierce the skin
And blood’s dripping, dripping
I left things in the wrong way
I’m sorry, I do hate loose ends
But for my pretence, everything makes sense
I still can't see why I got so obsessed
But you looked at me in a certain way
And for all the pain
Now I wish I could say
Fair weather friend
Summer with you never could end
Farewell again
Flee the scene when shadows descend
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Parasite
03:29
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Grateful to the core
I hate to ask for more
When without you I would be defenceless
Don't wanna isolate myself
But when I don't I feel the guilt
With each day, I grow more dependent
Do you still believe there's a chance for me
I am terrified I'll be your parasite
Reassure me now, I know further down
When all my lights go out, you might change your mind
Now my life fills with regret
For all I should have done and said
In the days before I was so helpless
I can't return the love
That I'm not worthy of
So say goodbye as I become my sickness
Did you earn love
Did you earn love
Did you earn
Did you earn life
Did you earn life
Did you earn
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Pretty When U Cry
03:40
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Heartbreak, disaster, unhappy ever after
Shaking like a leaf, frozen with PTSD
It feels as I'm dying every time we disagree
Lie where you left me, my mind disconnects, breathe
Over, up, over, down, see and touch and taste the ground
Turn turds into diamond rings, must think of no other things
Tie your hands and embrace the stink, don't waste precious suffering
Weapons where I can see them, now say you'll fight for freedom
I'm not sated by a token, better pray you kill some demons
Squirm at what I ask you, cry about what you can't do
It's nothing
It's nothing next to what I have to
Start the camera
Pick up whatever remains of me after
If you glue me back together
Then I know I can be broken over
And over
Contemplate your concepts, you can sing for sunsets
I must stake my heart on my part in the unrest
Melodies of pleas to be seen as a person
Suitably niche to be seen then forgotten
If you want it, my place in the corner
Sells chaos and pain and disorder
Come run your fingers all over my specialties
R-rated, are hated, carefully labelled
Because, it's really not so edible,
Give you pause for thought, but not in general
Just for now, you see my struggle and how
It's so inspiring no doubt, I never will be without it so
Am I a victim of the system?
Am I your best friend? am I a token?
I'm not important
I'll be important
If I bleed let it freeze, I can carve me an effigy
Respect intellect when the pain is my identity
Suppose that I deserve this, to find my sense of purpose
In dealing with the shit that I shouldn't have to deal with
Don't lie, don't lie
You don't look pretty when you cry
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